Words for you...

I'm actually forecasting, after 12 hours later,(although I'm not sure whether you will log to this web)
Someone will be very depress and sad because of something...
Honestly I'm not good in comforting people.

To the one who are reading this piece,

even though you may be in a very frustrated or sad mood,

even to you, it's a disaster or depressing one,

please don't give up..

The truth maybe always cruel as it won't goes according to you,

but as a human, we have to accept it...

Sad or depress is not prohibited but at least after having such feelings,

please stand out at your own feet and start to work-out..

Remember that many people will be there to support you, n you're not alone...

Failure is the key of success, it is the mother of success too..

As friend, I hope you will stay and give yourself another try because other too having the same situation with you...

I can't express it face to face because I'm afraid my words will hurt.. Hope you read it... =)

Rage it off!

I keep believe in one theory,
God is always balance and fair,
that everything is equal..
If you had lose something,
you will gain back something which is equivalent with the lose one...
Although it may be in different ways and feedback...
I really believe it is!

However,
if this is the thing that I have to sacrifice in order to pay back the gain...
I'm not satisfied nor agree with it!!!!
It's extremely unfair if it goes like this!!!
YOU gave me an opportunity to choose,
either to be an angel or devil,
I was willing to hurt myself in order to protect another from being hurt.
I thought it is worth for me to do an exchange,
I know it is!
But why YOU give me a lifebelt before I drowned,
I know I won't die because of the existence of the lifebelt;
and then you pull it away before I was able to reach it for survival ???

If cold-heart is the way to be, then I will follow the way it should be...
Or just Ignorance is bliss???
How could I ignore it??
Instead of Just Dance, I prefer Just Damn!=3

Dua puluh sen!

Few more days to go before my holiday end,
but I guess it would be the last time for me to hang out(with you) for this 2 weeks.
Honestly, I'm happy even though I was worried.
Thanks god that Kampar was my secondary home,
as I know if the longer I stay here,
things really will change...
Even I, Myself don't dare to imagine what's going to happen next.
I don't dare to think because I don't want to change anything,
just let it be the way when we first met will be perfect for me.
Throughout this 2 weeks,
I could say it's and it will be a memorable holiday for me,
although I didn't fully utilize my days,
I know you had been utilize yours ^^...
I was extremely happy when I noticed that you're still keeping the "ancient" pics,
although I was awkward when you showing it to me,
I was touched too.
I'm looking forward for next time when I will be coming back~
Thanks for picking Penang and thanks for everything...
Friendship forever^^ ...(please don't make me lose my bet for the drink oh>.<)

I wonder should I write it here, but luckily, I remember that you hate to read tons of words'...

Bet start on 24/5/2010, end on 24/11/2010... Item for bidding - MCD medium light coke!!
To someone who is involve in the bet, I definitely won't lose this one =P...

人生

人生，
就像是在马路上行驶的车子，
当然人就是车的驾驶者。

驾的太慢，后面的车子就会问候你家长，
甚至导致交通阻塞。
驾的太快时，很享受那种快感，很威风似的；
可是往往不小心、得意忘形就上去天堂了。
当然驾驶的时候，不一定一路都是通行无阻，
会遇上交通灯、交通阻塞等，那就是人生中的绊脚石和考验。

一个犹豫不决的驾驶者，
挡在路中间，是要往前走还是转弯都不懂的，
当然也逃不过被问候的下场，严重的还会遭来杀身之祸呢！
就像一个犹豫不决的人一样，
不能果断地决定自己要走的路，
是一件多悲哀的事！

马路上，
走错路了，
有些只是需要绕个小圈子，或是几条路就可以绕回原点，
有些要花费大量的时间和车油，需要绕一个大圈才可以回到原点，
有些走错了，你可能没有回头的机会。
人生，
一丝铸成千古恨，回头已是百年生~
人无千日好，花无百日红~
可我相信，守得云开见月明，就是碰不到月亮....

给自己的问题

面对自己真的很难吗？
为什么连自己要什么也不知道了？
等待了几年，愿望实现了，为什么还不满足？
真的要委屈自己就只是因为你喜欢一个你不懂他爱不爱你的人吗？
接近二十二岁人了，真的还要这样漂浮不停、犹豫不决吗？还有时间给你玩耍吗？
就算你知道你可以在别人手中得到他，你会高兴吗？
得到了，然后呢？？你真的认为你们会长久吗？
当初发生的问题，用了一个谎言来骗自己、责怪自己，难道就要永远逃避及再制造更多的谎言来掩饰他的错误？？
五个月多的时间，拿来当消遣吗？
你真的认为，两个人改变了，问题就不再存在了吗？？
四年来所浪费的青春岁月在一个过客的身上，值得吗？
回到她身边的话，他真的会珍惜你吗？？？

醒醒吧。。。

A reminder for me!

With the existence of my blog,
I hereby swearing that I would cut off all my feelings, emotions and sentimental thinking towards everything today onward!

Of course I can't do it in 1 day, I will try my best to do it no matter what it takes or how long it would takes!

Brain will be the top and only priority to function for any decisions to be made...
Emotions or any personal feelings shall be ignored and disposed.
Listen instead of talk!
Sharing or discussing personal stuff and emotion is prohibited!

I hope I can remember the mistake I made and this is the only way for me to safe myself.

往事只能回味吗？？

半天吊了，上不去、下不来。
选择？没得选，
失去的可以从来吗？
自己放弃的机会，可以要回吗？
历史可以改变吗？
其实答案很明显，不可能。

这次回来，我真的很高兴，
可是高兴的背后，酸酸的；
当初自己种的因，现在就要接受它的果了，
很讽刺吧？
原来这样就过了四年。

我是否应该不理会一切，照常相处？
还是有所避忌？
就照着心走吗？
如果照着走，我真的不需要理会别人的想法吗？
会不会很自私？

看会几年前一起玩的游戏，
我真的很怀念。
难道往事真的只能回味？

Piece of Memory

Guess what? The past 12 hours were awesome. It's quite long time since I wrote in essay form months ago, however, I decide to jot it down today. I would like to freeze it forever here, another piece of memory...

I thought it will be a nightmare for me, as I don't know what to chat with him, however, the things I worried weren't the problems at all. Everything went well. I'm glad with it^_^

Ip Man II, watched at Gurney Plaza. The movie was cool and humorous enough to entertain me, of course have to thank someone too=). Before movie, lunch of course! No time for picture since my hunger was overpowering than my sentimental side. After slack at the complex, beach time~ Was like being a tour guide, went to few beaches from Gurney drive to Tg Bungah and headed until Batu Ferringgi and then"fly back" down town there. The wave of the sea was crazy today@_@'''. Having dinner at the hawker stall at Gurney Drive.

Seriously, I enjoy the day very much... I hope he enjoy it too ^^.

I'd lie

What will you do when the wish you awaited for years granted,
yet only you found out that it's all lies?
I lived in the lie for years,
A lie which I create to cover the truth...
Even I,myself was mistake that it is the truth,
The wish I made,
Simply just nothing more but a lie...
I'd lie to myself,
I'd lie to my own feeling and heart...

What should I do?
I thought that is my hope,
I thought it is the best medicine for me when I was hurt...
But from the beginning until now,
It's just a lie, to make myself easier and comfort...
4 years back...
It was an excuse for me to recover and release,
just because I believe that the wish will grant and that is what I want...
Excuse still remains as an excuse.

I hate myself...
I'm truly tired with myself...
I was lying to myself for 4 years.

Idiot...

好人、坏人？

何谓好人？
对你好的人？不伤害你的人，
就称得上是好人？
那么那个讽刺过你、伤害过你的人就是坏人咯？
杀人放火、烧你全家，打你妈妈的人也是坏人？
你真的分得出谁好谁坏的话，
我真想拜你为师了。

对我而言，人并没有好坏之分，
只有聪明和愚蠢之别；
因为好人和坏人，都是同一个人。
对于自己喜欢的人，当然自己会显示出好人的一面，
面对你非常讨厌不爽的人，姨妈姑姐祖宗十八代都搬出来，
不是吗？

聪明的人，
并非是成绩好还是有多么强大的成就，
而是懂得在什么时候应该要做些什么恰当的事，
会把握机会来发挥自己。
当然，聪明人也是人，
总是会有做错的时候，
知道自己的错误，是聪明的，
知错能改，笨蛋跳海。
可是在如果知道自己的错误了，还是执著地不肯承认和有所更改，
那就是跳海也没得救，笨到一个顶点。

笨蛋的人，
就只会求人给而自己又吝啬，不肯付出的蠢材。
不懂得在正确的时候应该做些什么的，
只会要求别人帮忙，而自己却不尽力帮助自己，
极度蠢材的，
就是不懂原来自己是错的，还要嫁祸在别人身上，
更认为自己永远是对的。

我并非是一个聪明人，
很可能我也是一个笨蛋，
可是还是比上不足，比下有余吧。

原 、理

心里，
好久没有那么平静了，
没有任何挂念和思念；
也是一种享受。

长大了，
不可以像小时候那么无知和鲁莽了，
开始明白不是什么事都会依照你的想法。
“人在江湖，身不由己”
愚蠢的我才开始慢慢明白这句话的含义。

原来每个人对“感动”的定义是不一样的，
我觉得感动的东西，可能对别人只是觉得好意；
原来当我不再在乎某些事情时，
我也会被那个冷漠无情的自己吓到的。
原来最可悲的事不是因为你忘不了他人，
而是你自己都不知道原来那个景物已经消失在你脑海里了，
永远回不来了。

当我明白这些道理时，
自己也被吓到了。

Speci♥l One~

I'm extremely delight, toward tonight.
The feeling of excitement, was just get ride of the disappointment.
I know nothing more I can do, but nothing more I'm asking for
It was more than enough, at least I know you've changed after years.

For six years I'm waiting for,
my wish granted, tonight..
I thought my waiting will end up with idle nor numb;
I was wrong...

At least for today,
I faced my heart.
Finally, the thing I was awaiting for years,
is just by sitting in front of you,
enjoy your smiling face with lots of jokes and chats.

Thank you...♥

不一样的笑容

视线是越来越模糊了，越来越差了，
除非必不得已，我都会坚持不戴眼镜；
原因很简单，我就是不喜欢看得太清楚。

朋友们曾说过我观察能力和分析能力还蛮不赖的，
但我不曾认为那是一件好事，
拥有好的观察能力强和分析能力，
不是一件幸福或值得羡慕的事。
有时候本来不应该被发掘的真相，
揭开了会是一段恶梦的开始。

我是那么的好胜，不是要胜过别人，
而是不喜欢被谎言掩饰着真相，
就是输不起“谎言”；
我会是一个愿意费尽一切就只为了寻找真相的人，
当然也只是在于我在乎的事。

观察到真相了，分析到对的答案了，
又怎样？自己开心吗？
有时候，会宁愿自己笨一点，
有时候，希望自己少看一点，
更有时候，压迫自己少知一点。

不必要退后一步或向前一步的，
原地踏步会让你看到更多你意想不到的，
我是想看到多一些，又怕心里承受多一点的压力；
我想知道多一点，却担心自己会承受对一点的烦恼。
自讨苦吃。

不爱戴眼镜的我，
至少还能分辨得出，
同一个人在不同场合，跟不同的人一起时的笑容
很明显有着一些差别，
就是少了那一点点的自然和真实感....

厌

最后一张卷子，死在沙滩上了，
搬家后，老毛病又犯了，
连回家的路途，都要给我看到不吉祥的东西。
回到家后，才发现忘记带我的电脑的Charger...
连我唯一可以“隔离”自己的东西都没了。

有时候觉得我到底应不应该回来，
为什么每一次回来，都会听到我不喜欢听的东西。
为什么在我很烦的时候又加重我的负担？！！！
才回来第一天就有种不想回来的感觉，
难道真的是要我一年回来一次才甘愿？
我坏脾气？我没耐性？
不如这样好了，我们来调换角色！

我从来都不想认的 地方
一个我从来都不觉得是属于我的地方。
最小的待遇是最好？后面算起来吧。
我真的心冷了，我尽力了，
就当着是我跟你们没有缘分吧！

每次从朋友口中得知在家的趣事，
让我真的很羡慕；
多希望我有着这样的时候，
可惜那是不可能的任务。
是我不懂得珍惜？
珍惜从小就抱着不公平对待？
还是心理不平衡？

zzzzzz

不安 damage deal 200%
烦恼 damage deal 100%

Status: Stun + Poison + Freeze + Stone
HP: 1/999
SP: 0/500

Items needed for healing purpose :
2 x Ice cream
1 x Beer ( Long island preferred)
1 x extremely delicious food
1 x stone of reborn (老鼠药！）

__________________________________________________________

不安！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

无题2

今天在图书馆闲得没事做，
就试试看我的手提“耐用不耐用”，
结果不错，“空中飞机”了三次还好好的，
最后还无聊到“试试”看我的头硬一点还是桌子硬一点！
好丑哦，人家出丑一次已经够力了，我三次也叻！！！


凌乱的心境，复杂的心情，无法形容；
人是那么脆弱的，要走就走了，连交待一声也没有。
生死隔离是最悲痛的吗？
还是因为再生的时候你没有好好珍惜过？
儿女私情 vs 生死隔离，谁最悲痛？
“当然是生死隔离比较痛咯”，
你错了，那是你痛不是他痛，他没有知觉了。
“那么就是儿女私情咯，两个都痛嘛”？
那你又错了，等到彼此有了另一个就不痛了。
哪一个最痛，没得比；人比人，比死人！
是痒是痛，时间过了就会好了。


一样的路，却会走出不一样的结局；
一个愿意放弃自己的尊严和逻辑，
就凭一句“彼此相爱”，就在一起；
一个让理智淹没了心声的，
放弃了改写故事的机会。
能找到你爱他，而他又爱你的人不容易，
可是，彼此相爱了又能和睦共处的更加难。
童话故事里的爱情，只有表面的美好，背后的心酸多少人了解？


我曾经怀疑过自己的决定，
不过过了今天，我非常肯定我的选择是对的。
一个自私和固执的人，是不需要你改写一些什么的。
如果有了你和没有你的生活没有任何改变，
那我要你来干嘛？？当花瓶？
我需要的，朋友做得到而你却做不到，好可悲哦！
谢谢Fish aka Venice n-年前的的一句话，
还要我还记得~~
还是那几句话，往事只能回味；往事不堪回首；雕栏玉砌应犹在，只是朱颜改。

“对不起啊，桌子先生，我以后不敢了！好痛哦，我知道你硬一点了！”
呜呜呜T_T, 变笨了。。
痛痛 T____T

Bored One

I told myself not to be angry,
it's nothing to do with her,
all was because of that idiot's fault.
Yes, of cos it did!
Childish enough for those unnecessary argument...
It has nothing to do with me(surface),
But still something to do with me internally!!!!!
Waiting hours for the meal and failed...
The rice was dancing in front of me T___T..
The egg-tart was laughing at me too :'(
In the end the only poor things that I can grab was fruitie!!!

Last paper to go,
but where's my motivation???
Missing in action instead.
Not in good mood to study,
zero knowledge bout the subject,
subject is tough and hard to swallow..
Other enjoying their holiday trip at Langkawi,
but I'd become table hopper...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....

Few days more to go,
I could meet someone who I was awaiting for years,
but I wonder where's mr. excited?
Seem like I'm not really await to see him,
where is my desperation last time??
What should I speak to him??
Hi, today the weather is good, have you eaten your meal???
crap ~_~'''

At least, I'm despo in dreaming my food...
wuwuwuwu....
Don't want to study, can???
Too tired to study and motivation just being eaten by dogs.
I want mango peach Ice Cream!!!!!!!!!!

哑的吃黄连

看着面具上的灰尘，
好久没碰它了；
吹吹上面的灰尘，
差点忘了我不可以没有它。
戴上它不是我的喜爱，
可是我没有选择。

在自己的棋盘上，
作了一个错误，
我真的要为了我想要达到的目的，
戴回那个我不喜欢戴的面具吗？
我真的要丢弃我的心里的无奈，
只为了达到脑子里的目标？
自己惹的祸要自己承担，
逃避了几个月，问题还是存在的。

顿时想念在天空上的你，
我知道我的烦恼比起临走前的你微不足道，
你说过的话，我记得了却办不到。
可以告诉我，如何是好？
对不起。。。

我忘了怎么掩饰
我忘了怎样演艺
我更是忘了怎样面对自己

我只想要平静和自由。。。

去年的今天，和今年的今天，
走着同一条路，
却又不一样的心情。
该走的，走了！
留下来的是一些模糊的记忆。

该要面对的，逃不过，
该要守护的，不见了；
不该扑的，扑到差不多了。

完了

Just another piece of memory

Another semester is going to end soon,
three more days, it's my 1st year anniversary for coming to Kampar.
Previously I doubted my choice,
was choosing to leave;
I regret to doubt it after meeting you guys...
You guys are great.

If that's the fate made by god,
I'll treat it as a compensation for my sacrifice.
Maybe to you guys,
nothing more than just another new mate,
but to me it's a biggest ever gifts to me in Kampar.
With yours accompany,
I'm free from wearing any of my "used" mask,
just back to what I am will do...
It's comfortable without the masks, you know?

I truly enjoy today,
it's going to be an awesome memories to me for sure...
Although along the days my contribution wasn't much
just helps by saving the footsteps for you guys.
Thanks for everything ^_^

Good luck and hopefully it's just a coma of the memories and not a full-stop..

Specially thanks to Mr. Sotong, Ms Octopus and Mr "Pool"... XD

圈

我在地上画了一个圈圈，
一个足以容纳我的小圈圈；
站在圈圈的范围内，
可以感受到太阳的温暖，
可以望见花儿的微笑，
更可以在夜里看见星星的闪耀。

我只想原地踏步，
如果我往前踏多一步，
如果我往后退了一步，
离开了圈子；
等待我的是恶梦的开始，
还是美满的结束，
我不懂。。。
不过我懂的是

“妈妈说不可以赌”

Untitled...

Emotion that I had,are missing in action now...
The things that I cared before, no longer around.

Last time,
I hate the rain,
it's cold and irritate me;
I like it today,
I wanted to run and have fun in the rain.
though I failed to do so,
I lost my chance to wake myself in the rain...

How many times do I have to awake my brain?
Heart doesn't work for me,
it's spoiling me if I listen to it...
Brain made me suffer,
but at least it's letting me viewing the truth,
which the heart never tell before...

I'm afraid of the coming future,
full of uncertainties and question marks.
Once again,
I made a same mistake...
Can't help it but just let it be what it wants to be...
If I found any solutions,
I'll do it even I have to sacrifice something...