Unrequited Love - Memories to keep

I just can't control my feeling towards someone. I knew we were impossible to be together and I was so hopeless for unable to hold my feeling backs.

During this trip, I cherish every moments we spent together. Although, it might be one-sided, I wish I was able to freeze the time. I like the way you are, when you have the courage and willingness to solve every minor issues occurred during the trips. I felt happy when you were trying to annoy me when I slept and also we shared food and beverage. Even they doubt what we are after looked at our interaction. I like that feeling.

I realized I don't really understand and know everything of you. Finally, I've found all the answers on my doubt. I hope that wasn't true but I guess that's the reason for you to not loving girls. I hope the God will always by your side and you will stay health forever.

All the time, I felt so pathetic because all the loves I had were short and they fade easily. By writing this, I'll be able to remembered this after several period. At least it can preserve the feeling of mine for now. I cherished the 4 days we had but I'll end this here. I won't proceed further, because this is the love without any return and it's just like the air. Somehow, it will flows away sooner.

Thanks for giving me such a wonderful moments.

I miss you like i ever did...

Dear Nik Mei,

It's been years since you left us. Last 3 days was exact 4 years. How're you there? I believe Uncle sam miss you a lot even though he don't mention your name in front of other anymore. Hope you rest in peace in heaven and will be watching us out there. I miss you <3 nbsp="" p="">

I won't be the one

I knew you are depress and sad for the moment. I hate myself as I don't know how to comfort and cheer a sad person. Today, I found out how important you are in my heart. I wish that when you're happy, I'm the first person that you will share the happiness with. I wish I can be the one that make u calm and recover when you're sad or depress. But the truth is, I'm nothing to you. Even if one day, I'm something to you. We will still remain as what we are, because we are not fated to be together.

Before My old disease - forgetful starts, before I withdraw everything of mine from you, I would like to enjoy the process as I always believe the most beautiful moment in love is to be supportive to your loved one while hiding your feeling.

I Miss you guys

Every time when I flipped the photo album in my facebook, and every time when I saw the cabal online guild war and His comments. I felt down, because it reminds me that you and my little sis, nik had been left us for years. I miss you guys a lot, how are you guys doing up there? Are you watching the silly things I've done all the time?

Recently, my thought was so blur and I can't even decide what is the next step i should do. I know the reason, it's because I was the one that ignoring the issue all the time. The issue was there since our relationship started. The issue is my own problem anyway. Why I can't set up my mind to love you until the end? I don't want to blame that but why my heart always split when I tried to love only one person in a time? Why my idol type of guy has to appear now and not earlier? and why you play "bladder" in real life?! I can't stop my mind for keep on thinking of you.

My dear friends up there, can you tell me what am i supposed to do? Do i have to remain what I have now and quit thinking anyone else beside the one I chose? or do I have to surrender and back to the single life again? Hopefully i can get the best answer and solutions for this. Even though I know, my love is worthless.

Resurrect the dead blog

About 2 years I abandoned this blog. Time to get resume it *cleaning the spiderweb and mushroom*

Good Year And Good Day—˜–—˜–—˜–~ღ

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New Year 2011, 1.1.11

It's a brand new year,

everything isn't the same anymore since the last few month...

My wish finally granted,

it's really miracle that what I had pray all the times had come true.

23/11/2010 is the day that my wish grant afterall,

I appreciate what I have now and I hope that we could last forever.

Wishlist for my 2011:

- lose some weight

- having more healthier lifestyle, the same goes to my dear

- better results for final

- keep my dear happy

- hope to find back the memories that were fade via the new ro server

- everyone around me will be fine and all the best with them

- and of cos world peace...

WOE of heart

I really wish I will have the ability to control all the outcomes.
My mind is full of the uncertainties that could make me insane.
The first time I felt zero confidence on,
the more and more inputs really make me sick,
I should not key them in but too bad it's my fault again.

I really wish I could bury my mind,
so I could stop thinking everything,
but even if I stop, things still go on.
I m lacking of strength and analysis skill on this.
My skill was too weak and I could not identify the following things already.

Can I make a move according to my preference?
but I'm bound with the conditions,
I may lose everything if I bleach the terms,
yet what should I do to get win-win solution?
I'm still crazy of going for the gamble,
at least the answer will be shown in the end of day.
Just the matter whether I can accept it if it turns bad or not.