Revolution

I'll consider it as a beginning...
I would like to make some revolution on myself,
a new me.. new personality...
I know that the truth is still the truth,
whether I could accept it or not,
it just wouldn't change.
It's part of my give-up plan,
and some theories always flashed in my mind.

I don't have the strength to change anyone that I wish to do so,
and if I tried my best, it is just remaining the same,
I'll change myself instead.
What I think I can do, I've done it,
but the outcome is not under my control.
No matter how cruel the truths are,
no matter I could accept it or not, it wouldn't change.
Truth is truth anyway.

In the past,
I made my own analysis and I see the result on my own,
I couldn't accept and share the same shoulder with it.
Because I'm too weak...
The biggest weakness I ever had - overpowering for caring.

From today onward,
I'll try not to care something which isn't in my territory,
Should I just go back to the virtual world where all my mind is gaming?
Should I let the gaming take over my nerve and even my emotion?
everything is remain unknown...
But somehow I wish,
everything will be just as simple as my hair do...