Bloody Ice - End of Sem

One semester is ending,
everything was just like happening in dream...
It isn't a sweet dream, nor bad dream.
In short, happiness will not be there for long,
just I never thought it would be that fast,
I don't have the ability to change everything or anything.
It was too scary that I was able to see it but wasn't able to solve it...

I would never thought of it,
that the mask I left for months would be reused,
I really don't want to wear it, but it's like I don't have any choice to decide it!
I'm not covering anything that is harmful to anyone,
just intended to cover my weak side...
too many things for me to judge,
too many issues required my acceptances.
The more I see, the more fragile I found out what I am.
I'm weaker than everyone besides me...
too bad for this...

Perhaps getting used is the worst thing ever,
once you lost it, you would struggle like hell...
I thought I might stop to analyze and predict,
however, if I avoid doing this,
I might lose my only defense shield...
I predict them so I can get to prepare what will be happening next,
I estimate them so that it could be one of the input of my prediction.
Somehow, I see something that I think I couldn't accept them at all...
I know it's going to happen... soon...
Just like what I said, the gamble I placed...
Win or Lose... result is cleared, just the time matter only...