The biggest gaps between happy and sad happens in a day...
From years ago,
I dislike my birthday...
Celebration from friends always remind me the tease.
Of course I really appreciate all my friends' effort in order to make me happy.
But just why?
Why friends can do it but not my family??
What I want is just a simple greeting from them,
I don't care about the present, but I want the greeting from you.
Why you all can remember that guy birthday and forget about mine?
And I'm having the same birth day with him!!
From 4 years old until now,
I really feel disappointed and unfair!
Every time I wish, I hope that the date of birth of mine will disappear from the calendar!
No people will understand how pain it was and it is going on still...
I know many people will said that I'm kind of people who is greedy,
but you aren't me...
Perhaps yes, I have what people don't have...I get what other people can't get,
but I can't get the most simple ever thing I hope...for years.
And people can get them easily...
Why I have to bear the unfairness alone but not tat idiotic blood-related guy?
Why he can get what ever he want without any hard-works
And I have work hard like a mad cow?
And the fate is really kidding with me,
second substitute, beside family...
5 years I've been waiting to see you appear,
I know it's not your fault but still why?
The day when I enjoy the maximum rate of disappointments
is always my birthday...
Or rather I shall change the "always" into "definitely"...
I was still in my process in learning,
Learn not to hope for anything as it always end up with "joy" of disappointment....
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