不想知道的真相

“看是好看，真相却是难堪”，这句话让在迷糊中的我惊醒。今天总与抽空去检一检查身体了，没想到竟然逃不过那两位Aunty级专业人士的法眼，一句“你要你的左手以后废掉是不是？”，让我“不堪回首”。

以往在中学都拼命练球和积极活动，为了让学校和自己的面子不惜牺牲了不少东西。记得中二和中四的伤，还遗留在我的左背上和手掌上直到今天都在。今天一件件的真相都显示在我眼前，当然本来就知道，只是不懂会闹到酱大吧。一直以来，我都安慰自己左手没有力是因为我是女生，手没有力气是正常的；但是，我最不想听到的真相，又是残酷“飘出来”的。无论以前为学校付出了多少，那个换来的代价真是太大了，现在的痛，也只有我自己知！那学校里的老师们，很少老师会记得有我这个人的存在吧，好象很不值得哦。

除此之外，在治疗的过程，痛得我差点要昏倒。整个过程他们投在重复着一句同样的话“你身体很弱，要多照顾，不然以后会很惨”。 可悲的是原来我一直以来，时不时就头晕和脸青唇白的现象，又是一种病=.='，突然间觉得好无奈。怎么我那么弱？是的，我承认我刚才真得差点昏倒，还好她们帮我按摩一下，不然我真的会晕倒在地上@_@''。

我佩服她们的专业，因为我什么都没说，她们看就知道有些什么不妥的了。可是如果真的想他们所说，我想我的人生好像会很坎坷噢，说不定也不会活得太长吧？也好啦，只要短暂的有意义，我不在意长短啦。没什么想把这些事实告诉父母，以免让他们操心了，还是保密好！希望读者篇小稿的朋友不要念我就好>.<'',我啃写在这里就是揭晓你们一直催我去做检查的答案咯。所以我想这又是另一个我想单身的理由，至少不会连累到别人吧？=）

Just Regret, nothing much

In class,

I never expected that I will met someone,

someone that I can see your shadow within...

Though he might not realizing my existence,

his existence is dragging your image back to my mind...

I tried to avoid and ran away,

I never thought that I was running a big circle,

I step back the same spot that I began my running..

After years,

I thought I was able to forget everything,

Yet no! I just too useless to do so...

If that day, I didn't choose to leave,

today situation will be a lot difference, right?

No matter how hard I tried,

no matter how long it passed...

I really can't forget the mistake I made,

leaving was the most stupid choice I ever made in my entire life,

I thought you were the worst person I ever met,

Yet now I realized that you are the best one I ever met...

I admitted that my feeling is there,

yet I won't ask you to stay..

You're no longer there for me..

I knew that you had forgiven me,

but seeing the smile you having now,

I just hope that you will be fine... with her, happily..

It was my fault,

I'll carry the responsible for the decision I made...

Don't worry about me,

I'll be just fine...=)

That day,

the words were so warm and caring,

even I was sick like a pig,

I'm still grateful that you're there... 

Thanks god for the co-incidence,

the memories...

Thank you, my friend................