I missed the "me" in the past

From the moment I decided,

to stay away and to forget

the love and care's feeling toward you...

I know I have to do it

for the sake for you and myself

I know I might be forget

the feeling I had

the "me" in the past

The days that I was in loved with you,

was like holding a rose;

wanted to see the nice petals, 

but in the same time

pair of my hands bleed...

the thorns hurt me badly...

I thought you may show me

something that could replace

the pain that I carried

However you never did it once..

There's no way for me

to be like the previous one

smiling because of your cares

laughing because of your jokes

happy because of your existence

sad because of your ignorance

cried because of seeing you in sad condition...

I really miss that

the time where we spend together,

share our secret and joking with each other;

I do miss the day

where I figure out those ways,

in order to know everything about you...

where I did it successfully...

I did get something I don't hope to see,

but the truth and reality

were like holding needles and stabbed behind me...

I miss the pain brought by you.

However I couldn't feel it now

My immune system is getting stronger now

My brain can't work well in remembering

all the memories you gave..

I forget the feeling

just like the wind blow off the dust on window

Hopefully with this piece of note

I could remember a single piece of the memories you brought to me...