WOE of heart

I really wish I will have the ability to control all the outcomes.
My mind is full of the uncertainties that could make me insane.
The first time I felt zero confidence on,
the more and more inputs really make me sick,
I should not key them in but too bad it's my fault again.

I really wish I could bury my mind,
so I could stop thinking everything,
but even if I stop, things still go on.
I m lacking of strength and analysis skill on this.
My skill was too weak and I could not identify the following things already.

Can I make a move according to my preference?
but I'm bound with the conditions,
I may lose everything if I bleach the terms,
yet what should I do to get win-win solution?
I'm still crazy of going for the gamble,
at least the answer will be shown in the end of day.
Just the matter whether I can accept it if it turns bad or not.

Words to myself...

Don't be afraid of hurting, you've gone through something like this before.
Don't drink pepsi, as don't ever asking for more,
Learn to be obedient to the fate and not trying to change what had been set on you,
you can't run or avoid anyway.
Assumption always plays the role of killing the mentality,
which it always cover the ugly truth behind the screen.
Please learn to see through the glasses and not looking on the glasses..
Things that have been set must be complete according to plan,
even it's challenging and even the winning rate is only 0.01%.
the rest 99.8% I could see the outcome and even the speeches,
the 0.01% left is for me to pray for miracle...
Traps set by you must be uninstall by you only anyway...