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所有重要的器官，大都是和心脏最靠近，
就只有我们的脑袋里它最远了，
中间还得隔着一条骨桥，成为脊椎骨。
原因其实很简单，怕放两个在一起会打架。
脑子里想的，往往都是和心作对的，
而心里要的，脑子往往认为是最笨的。
最可贵之处，是脑和心拥有共鸣，
很少人做得到。

我总是在画圈圈，
固定了我的每一天，
固定了我的每一步路，
也约束心里想象的范围。
每走一步就想着之后的路，
就是离不开猜测，估计，和计划。
很累很疲倦。
可是我没法子不这样做，
这就是我。
真的很希望我可以偷懒一天，
不必猜，不必分析，不必想。

人羡慕鱼，可以在水里游，
人不是鱼，怎能知道鱼的忧愁；
鱼羡慕鸟儿，但无法了解鸟儿的快乐，
因为鱼不是鸟。
鸟羡慕人，是因为不知道人类的无知，
因为它们不是人类。
你羡慕我，因为你不是我，
永远无法了解我的惶恐和无奈。

我是一个笨蛋，不应该是个什么都懂、都理解的人。

曰

不是每一个人都能够理解我的想法，
也不是每一个人认同我的做法，
即使有一天，全部人都不谅解我，也不过是如此。
是我的脚步太快了？还是你们太慢了？
总是到了最后懂得我的用意。
信任？值得多少钱？
反正我没有错，也不需要任何人的谅解！
我只怨自己不够冷血、无情。

Quene

Sometime, statements are not defined by other, yourself instead...
the same perception too...
Luck, the thing that we are always questioned in.
Cage, another thing there...
You lock it yourself,
your choice.
Decision comes first, Damn or Bless next...

言

提醒自己，
玫瑰和仙人掌的存在。

对不起，我真的不能不约束自己。

^_^

Well, it's not my favorite to do so...

But every rule has their exception...

Of course, exception for my Mr. Prawnie brother~~

24/7/2010 - Specially for you la.. ^_^

I hope this way can repay your efforts and kindness to me la...

Knowing each other from 2007 March till now~~

Friendship forever^_^

Fairness

Sometimes I feel it's so unfair,
even though it's my choice,
I can't help but to know people's mind.
With this blog,
people get to know more about my mind;
how am I going know know about other??
The only choice left was just... senses..
Though I know it wouldn't stay for long,
there will be some-days that I may lose my only weapon...

机器人

劝告别人，谈何容易，
可是自己要说服自己还真难。
要相信自己看见的，还是听见的？
有时候，真的很难。
进难，退也难，原地踏步更加难,

虽然说是非成败转头空,可是还没转头前呢？
麻木地相信自己，犹豫着真理所在，
最后因为自己的过失，惹来不少烦恼。
这样的改变，我真的不太舒服，也不好过。
可是究竟应该怎样解决的，从头到尾，都没改变的，
只是不断地重复告诉自己别怕，不可以害怕，
除了这样好像没有别的了。

真的！有时候不是自己无能，而是不要让自己能，
就因为害怕自己的能让自己失去什么的。
我怕改变，可是我阻止不了改变，而我也一定要面对改变，
口头上说的，只是掩饰着伤痕，
脑子想的，只是不让心再乱来。

我只是一个机器人，除了会给反应之外，我什么都不是；
我也期望我真的是机器人。
这个就是让自己放松了许久的后果。
对不起别人，和对不起自己。

看见你新放的照片，
我想我真的不一样了。
一年前的我，肯定没有那么平静对待。
时间过得真快，
而我却是出乎预料的平静和自然，
看来我真的放下了。
就连所发生过的事，
就像被埋没在灰尘中，
渐渐模糊了。
我会写在这里，只是纯粹的提醒自己，
曾经我也会因为你的一句话，一句很平常的借口，
让我享受了了一年不愉快的二十一岁。
不是你无情，而是我太用心，
不过不重要了，
因为我学会了不给自己任何的期望，
要做什么就做下去，不必要等了再等；
还是要谢谢你，给我人生有个不一样的体会，
也让妹子安心了吧？

=)

So you failed to do it again...

thought you were successful on what you had mentioned,

but few days later you failed to make it...

just like the insect stuck on the spiderweb...

A new perception here,

I deserve better....

心

人总是这样，

你喜欢的人，他却不喜欢你，

你不喜欢的，就吵到要命。

很难得我心里不再有任何的挂念，

却又来了好几单烦人的事。

有时候，就是约束和固定害的。

被约束，即使有了自由，也会时常警惕自己。

固定了，有些事情是不可以照着心做的。

我很羡慕那些肯照着心做事的人，

不怕约束和不被固定的。

因为我知道，除了我之外，

还有许多人，是无法跟着心走自己想要走的路，

责任和理智战胜了心灵。

别人会羡慕我拥有的性格，很希望和我一样，

可是当你是我时，我想你会厌倦和无奈。

冷血？怕再被伤害，

无情？怕又在失望；

拿得起放得下？除了这样，我还能怎样。

快复原？麻木了。

身体遇到细菌感染，生病了一次，就会有多一层的抵抗力，

心理遇见太多的伤害，自然也会多了一次的教训和克服的抵抗力。

如果给我机会跟着心走自己要的路，

选自己要的人，我一定会走去，

可惜我的性格改不了，被动和沉默是我的特征。

如果你有机会，那你会把握跟着自己的心走吗？

Top Priority

Some flashback there,

I have a simple hope here.

No matter any changes or impacts are there,

The only thing that I would never change,

I just want you to be happy, daddy~~^_^

Everything is meaningless without your existence,

I know I can't do anything to pay back my entire debts,

I can't even helps you to clear off those junkie and noobs.

But my top priority will be always you~~

I don't care suffering and what's make me bloody hell hurt;

If it's your comfort, everything will be alright to me=D...

I love you a lot... papa~~~muakz~~~

Flash view

A new lesson of the day : Isolation and ignorance make perfection...

Could I ever have some time to rest my mind?? Please stop creating problems...
Guess what, as usual, I hate idiot...
Once you did it, forever you pay for it...
Girl, I don't really care you're intended or careless to do so,
still I'm really disappointed with you. =)

I know I still unable to do what I had promise at the previous posts perfectly, but I'm on my way...
1 more variable to make me move on...

My Day

It's been ages since I cook spaghetti, and today I did it~ I remember the latest cook was half year ago... Although it's insufficient ingredient for it, it's nice anyway~=D


And Finally~~~
It's great and delicious, you know?? =D colorful and nice^^

I found the luckiest ever thing in the whole day, thanks for your blessing... I always believe you're watching us there~ =) miss you a lot...
I'm glad that I'm so lucky to have friends like you all...

Cactus-wannabe

Practically, I was over-estimate myself,
eventually, I was underestimate myself too...
Blog, I could delete it as I like.
Things I hate, throw it away if I want to,
Memories? Can I press Delete button?
I just have a simply wish here,
hoping the incident that happened in the past year won't reappear again.
And of course,
I grown up, at least for 1 year-old...
I don't putting too much hope on that,
and thanks to that "forget" word,
you drive me crazy for the whole year of my 21!
Therefore, nothing much but memories =)
Too many I want to forget,
too many things I want to bury,
including bury myself into the graveyard.
How great to be a cactus~~

Lastly, thanks you prawnie... for all the well-managed of my ids...^^

晓

至此，能坦然让我说出心里话的人，
我会毫无隐瞒的说，多年来也只有一个。
应该高兴还是伤心，不详。
请原谅我的隐瞒和谎言。

原来真的能了解到我在想什么的人，
知道我用意为了什么的人，一个都没有。
可悲。
是时候放慢脚步了，哪怕是没人跟得上，
不如说是我自己走的太快了。

如果笨蛋都做得到而我又做不到的事，
那我真的浪费二十一年多的米。

364days

The petals of the roses fallen,
I know the length which I could see the perfect scene is not longer there.
I wish that the petals would fall at all,
I hope they could remain there without leaving the plant,
It's impossible for that.

I was wrong that I thought I could hold,
Never know that I would hold the rose,
I made a mistake by scratched my finger tips.
I made a mistake by making the petals fall in the same time.

I broke my promise made. Sorry to myself, I must be work harder in order to achieve that stage...

累了

我可不可以什么都不要想？
我可不可以什么都不要听？
我不是不认同你们的意见，
我只是不知道要怎样啦！

我不想听！我不想想！我也不想猜了！
突然我觉得我很累很累，
我不曾是让命运控制我的人，
但我想赌一次博，名为“顺其自然”!

Cleaning

If you think you have the authority to criticize on me,

you're wrong!

If you think what you did were right,

you're definitely wrong too!

You had the authority but now you have no authority at all...

Things changed.

I thought if I cut the bound between him and me,

it's just affected both of us,

but too bad, you're one of the victim too^^

it's okie, sweep both of you out of my life will be my will.

Last time you can speak, but now you can't...=)

Words are dust from you...

Good-bye to dust...