The Chosen Path...

Today is 1st anniversary for few of us knowing each other

I'm glad for meeting you guys

You thought me and changed me a lot..

For the truth,

I don't really hope you guys will remind of today's

because I am hoping only me who remembered it

I'm selfish =P

I understand I done quite terrible things

But I also know that someone like me

won't be a perfect tea

For 3 months I struggled

to choose one of the paths

either leave or stay...

I chose to leave in the end

As I know I'll have more wounds if I stay..

For 10 months I tried hard

to give up and forget the feeling which not belong to me

I succeed to finish it.

After count, 

I had left for half year..

Actually I'm still wondering

did I chose a right path?

Thanks my friend for create opportunity for us

but that's useless

I feel weird and no longer having much talking with him

He is still the same

the only change is me...

Because my heart no longer has his existence

We're just friend...

Normal one...

Upcoming one....

I want to hold

the parts that had been lose

the feeling that had been faded

Although it's impossible for me

I thought gave up was the way to release myself

from living in a cage of darkness

But I was wrong..

These way just let me fall

fall into another trap

For the first time

I was unable to predict what's gonna happen

For the first time

I feel such lacking of confidence

about the upcoming storm 

that might arrises into my life

If I was able to get through the pain

that I caused it myself

If I'm still with the cage

I doubted I'll live better

at least without uncertainty

at least without blind guessing

God please make me strong

Give with me strength to ignore those craps...

please...

发泄！！！

转眼间半年过去了

本来对这所大学充满怨言的我

如今好像习惯了

不是因为他们有进步

而是因为我对他们的态度麻木了

如果他们做事会好一些

那么那天真的是大新闻呢

这几年来我很努力

想让自己摆脱那个缺点

可是我真的办不到
为什么我就是那么怕自己一个人

别人可以自己用餐

别人可以自行去某个地方

别人可以自己一个人逛街

甚至一个人旅行

可是为什么我不能？！

别说旅行，连一个人出门我也怕

可是怕什么我也不懂

自己真没用！！

一直以来的我

真的认为我对别人好

我尊敬别人

别人也会对我好

也不会为难我

可是我发觉到

我是“用肉包子打狗”

来到这里才发现

这里的友谊是建筑在利益身上

如果不给他们利益

别想他们对你真心

还会更跟你斤斤计较

在你后面说背话呢！

好可怕哦！

可我还是很天真

我还是相信好心会有好报

请让我相信

请不要让我失望

我想过

现在开始对人家冷酷一点

无论在班上还是家里

都不要再用心对待别人了

不然一定会失望的！！！

可是就是自己没用

衰心软！！！

Co?incidence?dance?

I know I had been saying these words before

"Co-incidence isn't happen whenever it wanted to be,

it is because fate had already decide whenever what it will be"

Having similarity with another person,

doesn't mean that you and him was fated to be together...

sometimes it means that both of you have the same personality

it's rare to have someone that having the same personality with you

so sometimes we might be mistaken that he is the one you waiting for...

For what I was experience in the past

Co-incidence was an experiment given by god

failure or successful one

it's all depend on your efforts and attitude

of cos part of it was depend on luck too

If you able to complete the experiment successfully,

the fate is yours

but if you fail

it's only something silly that you met in your life

it might be a funny one or the hurt one...

I was a fool

I was the one that spoil the chance

even the god had create such a great co-incidence for me

I had waste it because I was lack of confidence

I was too stupid to admit that I had fall to the trap

for the 10 months

My heart beat in the darkness

My tears drop at the rain

I know everything is over

I was free again

but in the same time

God create another co-incidence for me...

I don't know what it may turn

but I hope I won't fall into the same darkness again

I'm scared of darkness

I'm afraid of the feeling of disappointment

Please think before you move

the new co-incidence..... 

 

今天之思言

曾以为自己无法忘记

会对某些过客念念不忘

也因此让自己伤痕累累

还好那阵雷阵雨已经成为过去

是一场彩虹般的阵雨

淋了一场彩虹雨

才知道原来冷漠无色的雨滴里

也有滋润心理的彩虹

庆幸因为雷雨的过去

我终于有机会体验阳光的热情

怀念因为那阵彩虹雨已过去

我始终想念当时的表情

因为你的出现

改变了我

更把我从虚糜世界就出来了

可惜该说是“有缘无份”

还是“得不到永远是最好”？

希望你和她过得快乐

我喜欢现在的自由

不再流泪的生活

可是我害怕孤独的迎接

我遇见了太阳

可是那个只是早晨的阳光

只是开始呢

至于中午、下午

我不晓得太阳还存在吗

还是那个太阳只是个假象？

不过我坦言

我喜欢阳光~

至于得不得到那份热

不太重要

因为我只想记得

他的存在....

Food Philosophy

A cup of hot chocolate

bring a great taste for you

if it can fully satisfied you

when you were facing problems

it would help you forget the pain 

that you had been through

for a while

Human can't survive 

without the existence of food

Some eat them to stay alive

Some stay alive to eat them

So which shot are you?

Plants and trees

animals and fish

sacrifice themselves to become our life resources

Although this is the food chain in this world

preparing dishes without efforts 

or just for the purposes to complete the task given

That's a waste

you made the sacrifice worthless

A great meal

could be a comfort to someone who were sad

Lunch with the blessing of delicious food

could be the last meal for someone who are leaving

even a plain soup

if it taste good

it could be a memory for me

to recall what was happened in the past

Food isn't here to settle down my hunger

their existence are the finest things for me

as a human

not only enjoy the smells and tastes

but also bring lot of memories for me...

So please,

Don't spoil them

Please respect the ingredients while you cooking

For you, the ingredient once spoil can be replace

but the things that die would never had a chance to resurrect

P/s: please cook nicely, hate those food that taste terrible but they still dare to sell to consumer...